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Living Healthily and Happily

Huang Liang Ming

I am a cancer patient. I hope that this article will give you an understanding of the illness, and that you will take the necessary precautions against it.

Cancer patients not only have to suffer the physical pains and the foul smell of the body, but also mental torment with the thought of facing death. On top of that, there are financial burdens which the family members have to face and experience with great stress. Many may already know about this, yet there are still many who do not believe that it would happen to them, and therefore they do not take precautions. Even if the illness is cured, no doctor or physician can confidently guarantee a complete recovery. Although all the cancer cells may be temporarily destroyed, if the cause of the illness still exists, there is likely to be a relapse. Therefore, cancer patients need to permanently maintain physical and spiritual balance.

The cause of nasal cancer is still unclear although doctors claim that there are some connections to infection due to the “EB virus”. As for me, it could be due to the fact that I am a smoker. It was the year when I started my career as an instructor. I was watching television one day when I touched my neck and discovered a small lump about the size of a peanut below my ear lobe. When my fingers pushed it, it seemed to bounce randomly. It did not itch nor was it painful, but my intuition told me that something was not right. At that time, I did not feel anything unusual physically except for a little tiredness.

When the school term started, I was very busy. However, my colleagues met with road accidents quite frequently, so I had many opportunities to visit them in the hospital. As there was an Ear, Nose and Throat specialist in the hospital, I decided to consult the doctor. My blood was tested, and an X-ray was taken. Suspecting that it was only an infection of the lymph node, I was prescribed with some antibiotics pills and asked to return a week later. The lump remained a week later. I decided to get a second opinion from another hospital. The physician examined the lump and kept shaking his head. The laboratory results indicated some suspicion, but the doctor could not confirm. A series of laboratory tests and suspicions by the doctor led me to feel very down. Finally, “Judgement Day” arrived, and the doctors’ expression indicated bad news. They confirmed that it was cancer. I was stunned and helpless and cold sweat kept pouring from my forehead to my legs. A nurse consoled me and whispered that cancer doesn’t mean death and encouraged me to be optimistic or else I might not be able to handle it. My wife held my hand tightly and remarked that the battle has just begun. She would be by my side to take care of me until I regained my health.

December 14th was my first encounter with radiotherapy. The one-minute treatment seemed like a year. There was a burning smell for the first few seconds, and I felt tired. If the radiation was on the left neck, the right neck would swell. Daily radiation was painful. However, when there was no treatment on weekends, the situation worsened. The seven to eight weeks of radiation had adverse effects on my body as well. Fortunately, doctors confirmed that the cancer cells did not spread, therefore there was no chemotherapy treatment required. For the first two weeks, my saliva glands started to malfunction, and my mouth was constantly feeling very dry. I lost my sense of taste, had a sore throat, and had lots of phlegm. The skin on my neck and face turned red, my nose was blocked, I had a loss of appetite and a lack of energy prevailed. That one-minute daily treatment was hell. On the third week, my face and neck turned purplish-red due to the constant radiation. The burning pain together with the winter cold was unbearable. I was feeling down, short tempered and fiery.

Come January 5th, I had undergone sixteen hours of radiotherapy. It was the darkest period of my treatment. My mouth rotted; my throat was badly sored. By the end of the month, it has been the longest and most painful time of my life. Swallowing saliva was like cutting my throat, the piercing pain was burning, food became tasteless, and I was unable to drink. However, to maintain my energy level, I forced myself to eat. A meal took me two hours, my face was full of tears. It was emotional and physical torture for me.

During the treatment period, my teeth were badly damaged due to radiotherapy. My gums were infected, and my teeth became very sensitive to cold, heat and solid foodstuff. Eating became a massive task. I decided to adapt a vegetarian diet. I brushed my teeth after every meal and hence the damage was not too great. I drank fig leaves boiled with water, which had a cooling effect on me.

One and a half months of treatment came to an end. The rest was up to me. Many patients presumed that the end of treatment meant recovery. This is a very dangerous and wrong perception.

One of my good friends, who is also a cancer patient, ended his chemotherapy treatment earlier than me. But cancer cells spread to his liver in March the same year and he died in May. Another passed away in June, then one in July…. if one could survive the first year, then there is hope. But there are still people who pass away on the second year, the third year and so on. By the fifth year, the opportunity for relapse is small, therefore the possibility of death is smaller.

I started preserving my health after my treatment. I let myself be filled with joy; meditated; stuck to a vegetarian diet with little oil, salt and no MSG; practiced Qigong and did light exercise. I have lived healthily and happily for four years. Although thin, I am in the pink of health and felt energetic.

When I was at the initial stage of my illness, many “representative” and “specialists” rushed to my residence to promote their “guaranteed effective”, “top class” health food. If I refused to buy their products, they would not barge. They would stay at my place for the whole afternoon till midnight. When under treatment, my body was already weak and I still had to attend to such tiring attacks, it was really difficult. The family members of the patients suffered too, as they were already helpless and still had to spend money on such products. It was worse for those who were financially weak.

By a stroke of good luck, I accepted and practiced some physical and mental relaxation methods. It definitely helped me in regaining vitality and building up my self-confidence. I went to a university in Taiwan to learn the use of electricity on the body to activate the acupuncture points. This increases the energy level of the body and helps enhance the body’s resistance. This continued for three months and was the main reason for my stable condition.

A book entitled “Pursuit of Life” authored by Dr. Chiu-Nan Lai, which I borrowed out of curiosity and read carefully led me to accept a vegetarian diet and the reasons behind it. At the same time, I practiced a kind of Qigong from mainland China called “Xiang-gong” (香功) an hour a day for three years. I felt that it was very effective. This complimented a method I learnt on regulating my breath.

I frequently used meditation to calm my mind and increase my energy level. I notice that we worry about many things such as gain, loss, praise, libel, fame, reputation, etc. This is a burden on our mind and body, as it dissipates a lot of energy. If we could regulate our thoughts and relax ourselves, energy will naturally be created. When I meditate, I sit on a chair without leaning against its back. I would sit in a lotus position, relax the forehead and put on a gentle smile, relax the knees and ankles, with both palms on the legs, and breathe naturally. I would then visualize a beautiful scene with dragon flies by the lake, water flowing, insects calling, birds chirping …. or I would think of my happiest moments, calm myself and reduce scattered thoughts to conserve energy. I started my meditation sessions with ten minutes, and gradually extended them to thirty minutes. (stop)

Practicing Qigong enhances our physiological ability and helps our bodies to fight against illnesses. One needs to relax when practicing Qigong and have a joyful and peaceful heart. The best time to practice is in the morning, in places where there are trees and water; pine trees will be ideal. People who practice Qigong are usually happy, as bottled feelings could be released. There are cases where swellings disappear after practicing it. Xiang-gong and breath regulating exercises have very simple actions. They are beneficial to the elderly who have chronic illnesses or cancer patients. I spend many hours on both and do not feel tired at all.

The greatest help after my treatment was the concepts Dr. Lai talked about in her book: to face cancer, heal it, and prevent it. In short, Joy+Qigong+Regligious Belief = Happiness and Health.

Dr. Lai holds the view that cancer is not difficult to get by if one is happy and relaxed, as most chronic diseases including cancer are related to emotions. For instance, when one who has lost a spouse, body resistance will be low. Agitation may lead to heart attacks and suppressed emotions may lead to cancer. Patients who have the warmth and care of family members and friends recover faster than loners. One should confide one’s troubles and worries with others. True happiness is giving love without worrying about reciprocation by others losing. Put greed, hatred, jealousy, ego and misery aside. Being joyful is a precious asset. Smile and laugh as much as possible; all the health, happiness, longevity and even wealth, that we had wanted, will be ours.

With regards to adopting a healthy diet, Dr. Lai believes that natural healing through vegetarianism is the best medicine. Many feel that cancer is deadly and hopeless. There is too much fear in it but this perception must be changed. Cancer can be cured and prevented. She hopes that people will consume less fatty foods, eat more greens, fruits and grains, take less oil, salt, sugar, MSG, alcohol and cut down on carcinogenic foodstuff, and avoid going to smoke-filled amusement parks. Strictly abiding by these rules will cut down the threat of contracting cancer and prevent its occurrence.

The causes of cancer are many. Therefore, treatment should be multi-faceted. It is most important to build up the patient’s body resistance and vitality by focusing on the diet for prevention and cure. One’s diet can improve one’s physical condition; hence a strict diet is important. In addition, the use of herbs and health teas, together with Qigong will produce good results. Of course, it is helpful to have an optimistic outlook towards life.

Dr. Lai also said that man’s glut and craving for meat, refined sugar, refined rice, refined noodles, MSG and refined industrial food leaves the body with toxins that could not be discharged, hence poisoning the body. In actual fact, eating meat is eating dead food; stopping this will cause one to resume good health. Consuming natural chlorophyll, organic fruits and vegetables will provide the body with proteins, minerals, fats and carbohydrates. Eskimos, due to their environment, have meats and fats as their main diet. Not only do they mature young, but they die young as well. Their average life span is only twenty-seven years. People in culture where fruits and vegetables are the main diet live longer and are in good health.

The Chinese have for many thousands of years been consuming green vegetables, tofu and simple food. Except for festive celebrations, they are mainly vegetarians, hence their good health. However, the recent industrialization has negative development. Daily consumption of fish and meat plus refined food has created a host of modern diseases.

I am now planting wheatgrass and drinking its juice and I drink plenty of carrot juice too. Vegetables purchased from organic outlets, though more expensive, is healthy and good.

My efforts towards recovery has given me health and happiness and I begin to see light again!

Be Aware and Transform – practising the Power of Now

Qiu Li Hui

“Human beings have the ability to place their awareness wherever they choose.  That’s part of the gift of being a human being. That is also the responsibility of being a human being.”

  • Dr. Mitchell May in “Drip Meditation

A few years ago, Lapis Lazuli Light (LLL) has published a book and DVD by Dr. Mitchell May, which were a tremendous help to my spiritual practice. Among which, I recalled his words: “we are possessed by the past.” shook me to my core.

This year, a friend reciprocated my gift of book to her with more good books and one of them is A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. This book described “the pain body” and defined what is meant by ‘possessed by the past’ in greater detail. In Tolle’s words:

“The greater part of most people’s thinking is involuntary, automatic, and repetitive. It is no more than a kind of mental static and fulfils no real purpose. Strictly speaking, you don’t think; Thinking happens to you. The statement “I think” implies volition. It implies that you have a say in the matter, that there is choice involved on your part. For most people, this is not yet the case. “I think” is just as false a statement as “I digest” or “I circulate my blood.” Digestion happens, circulation happens, thinking happens. The voice in the head has a life of its own. Most people are at the mercy of that voice; they are possessed by thought, by the mind. And since the mind is conditioned by the past, you are then forced to re-enact the past again and again. The Eastern term for this is karma. When you are identified with that voice, you don’t know this, of course. If you knew it, you would no longer be possessed.

“The physical organism, your body, has its own intelligence, as does the organism of every other life form. And that intelligence reacts to what your mind is saying, reacts to your thoughts.  So emotion is the body’s reaction to your mind.” The body has no choice and “it cannot but respond to all the dysfunctional thought patterns that make up the ego. Thus, a stream of negative emotion accompanies the stream of incessant and compulsive thinking.”

This description evoked a memory:

Many years ago, LLL held a workshop in Thailand and I was bringing 75 participants from Taiwan to attend. A volunteer from Thailand conveyed the message from the airline, requesting us to confirm our bookings. Otherwise, the bookings would be cancelled. We were also informed that the seat bookings of our 2 members were not secured yet. It was just after the tsunami and the airline was having a promotion that resulted in the flights being fully booked. Hearing this, I panicked and rushed to my colleague in charge of the bookings in the restaurant. She had just finished her meal with 2 coconuts still on the table. After I told her about this matter, she responded with a nod and continued with her coconut drink.  I stood there waiting. She emptied the coconuts of water and started for the coconut flesh. Finally, I exploded with anger, yelling at her, “How long do you want me to wait? If you do not call back soon, all our seats will be cancelled. Can you be responsible for this?”

As I watched her stood up and walked out reluctantly, I deeply experienced the taste of “mind attacked by rage”. This rage nearly exploded my head. At that point, I suddenly remembered a story from Dr. Lai. One of her teachers was sharing about her spiritual growth and learning to be grateful. No matter what happened, she would say “thank you”. Even at one incident where she dropped and broke a bowl of soup, she said “thank you.” So, I really wanted to give that colleague a kick but I forced myself to say “thank you” in my heart. At the beginning, it was difficult and I really did not want to thank her. But, amazingly, once I started to say “thank you” in my heart, the anger abated, and the angry energy was gone. And I started to recall the excursion to the National Park we went the previous day. She (being quite chubby) ran up and down the buses, ensuring that everyone was accounted for in each bus in a manner so responsible. My heart sincerely just wanted to tell her “thank you”!

Later, calmly, I told her that if I were her, I would have stood up immediately and hand over the booking information, and then return to the coconut water. I asked her why she was so different. She said that she could not leave the table until she finished her food. A hypnotist teacher once read her past and shared that she was starved to death in one past life. Therefore, eating a full meal is more important to her than anything else.

Tolle explained:

[Because] the past lives in you as memories.. [and] because of the human tendency to perpetuate old emotion, almost everyone carries in his or her energy filed an accumulation of old emotional pain, which I call “the pain-body.” (p. 140)

Hence, if we do not release the past, repair the emotional scars caused by life experiences, we will be “possessed by the past.”

Observe how you and those around you react to a particular matter or thing.  We really have different reactions.

Our fears, sadness, hatred, arrogance, timidity are a result of baggage from the past and constrained by the “pain-body’. The circumstances are the way they are, but it is our views and beliefs that form our emotional reactions to them.

In our body, observe the emotional reactions that are a result of the mind. Be aware that at this moment, I am “creating pain” for myself, and tell myself that “every moment, I am responsible for my internal emotional state”. When we begin to do that, we are beginning to be aware or conscious of the contents from the unconscious mind.

Then, following our own affinity, religious beliefs or the methods we learn before, apply a technique to transform and heal.

This colleague whom I mentioned earlier participated in several Thousand-Arm Kwan Yin retreats which require fasting. As she overcomes the experience of hunger and fasting, her previous eating habit stops.

For me, whenever I am aware that I am ‘possessed by the past’, I would first tap the acupoints, the method taught by Dr. Lai, to release the memory cells. Then I proceed with Dr. May’s method to transform.

Of course, as what a spiritual teacher advises, practice is cumulative over time and not a rapid turn. If who we are today is an improvement from yesterday, that is progress.

I remembered that time when Dr. Lai and I returned to Taiwan from Xinjiang. Due to heaty-ness, the pain in my gums was intolerable. My dentist could only see me two days later. But over the phone, I exclaimed, “No! I want to see you immediately NOW!”  Dr. Lai observed that and reminded me, “Gosh! Your old habits of the Prime Minister [past life] is really serious.” I reflected on how I treat people and conduct myself – my domineering attitude reveals itself quite frequently and unconsciously.

I recall poor Mr Li Nan (volunteer editor for Lapis magazine) who is always asked by me in great urgency to stop everything at hand and help edit our magazine immediately. He would sigh and ask, “What did I owe you in my past life?” I always jokingly replied, “Because you often rode on a white horse to my house to drink tea, and you never paid for the tea!”.

Once on a trip to Wutai Mountain in Jiangxi, I saw some ancient pots that might have evoked some memories from my past lives. I could not stop myself from buying the pots. I think we are not only influenced by our past emotional scars, but also by our interactions with people, our likes and dislikes of things.

Let us now diligently practise being an observer of our inner self. Every time we are aware that our breathing gets faster and negative emotions arise, pay attention to our mind. Our mental state is like a restless monkey jumping around. Then return to observe our breath immediately, send blessings from our heart and say thank you. Tell ourselves: now, the “pain body” from the past is here again.

On occasions that the other party is being really unreasonable, the moment we are aware of our own emotions, in our heart try to empathise that the other party is also in the pain of being “possessed by their past”. Then our emotions will calm down quickly.

Extract from another good book written by Tolle, “Practicing the Power of Now”:

“The pain-body, which is the dark shadow cast by the ego, is actually afraid of the light of your consciousness. It is afraid of being found out. Its survival depends on your unconscious identification with it, as well as on your unconscious fear of facing the pain that lives in you. But if you don’t face it, if you don’t bring the light of your consciousness into the pain, you will be forced to relive it again and again and sustained conscious attention severs the link between the pain body and your thought processes and brings about the process of transmutation. “

“The greater part of human pain is unnecessary. It is self-created as long as the unobserved mind runs your life. The pain that you create now is always some form of non-acceptance, some form of unconscious resistance to what is. On the level of thought, the resistance is some form of judgment. “

“On the emotional level, it is some form of negativity. In other words, the more you are identified with your mind, the more you suffer. The more you are able to honour and accept the Now, the more you are free of pain, of suffering – and free of the egoic mind.”

Dr May said:

“A great deal of spiritual practice is really about breaking habits. Because once we break these habits”, we are no longer constrained by the egoic mind, “then the true self is free to show itself.”

“How do we begin this healing with ourselves? And what do we need to do for that to happen?”  “You can use negative thoughts as teachers.  Because they will show you where you have mental states that need healing.”  “And they take some time to release the rhythm or the pattern for the habit of where they come from.  Most of us suffer from this greatly. When you have negative thoughts come, at first, of course you’re not aware of them, and they kind of take over for, it might be two seconds, but it might be five minutes before you realise. The important aspect is when you do become aware of them to stop for a moment, and it’s almost as if you turn to face them, and for me, I bow to them.  And I thank them. For coming to show me:

Where I need liberation.
Where I still suffer.
Where I am unaware.

“And at first, for most of us, we won’t be able to just make those thoughts stop.  So when a thought comes that is not helping you or helping others, and you notice it, then you need to create the opposite thoughts.  I’ll give you an example.”

“If you are upset at somebody else, and every time you think of this person, whether you see them or they come to your mind, you start to grumble and think not-so-nice things about that person, what you need to do, if you made the commitment to change, is you need to bless that person.  And this is a big commitment.  And changing has nothing to do with whether this person you are mad at is good or bad or right or wrong.  It’s about you.”

“You have to usually begin very small when you bless them because it’s very hard for us to change from being mad to blessing.  So you can give this person a small blessing.  A small blessing may be, “Oh! I hope their day isn’t too bad.” And then the next day, it will be time for you to give a bigger blessing: ‘Oh! I want them to have a good day.’ If your mind has resistance, you must bless them again.  With time, your negativity will begin to evaporate.  And that blessing will grow larger and larger.”

Nowadays, I love to listen to the sound of the flute played by Dr. May every morning and before sleep, allowing my breathing to follow the flute and feeling myself going into a deep calmness. As I experience this inner peace more often, it becomes easier to be aware of changes in my body when external situations trigger my “pain-body”.


“When we are aware that we were controlled by the “pain body”, it severed the link between it and our thinking, the “pain body” begins to lose energy. We changed the vibrational frequency of the “pain body” and transform it with the energy of blessings.” — Tolle


“We need to let go, release, give up certain things so that something new can come into our lives. Prayers can bring into your life, more wisdom, more forgiveness, more understanding, more compassion, and to invite more of the qualities you want into your life.” — Dr. May


However, if our ingrained habits are hard to transmute, there is a good method for Buddhists. Extracted from an article in November 2010 issue (Lapis Magazine), Spirituality column (p.17):

“If this person has habitual patterns that cannot be eliminated, you can teach this person to recite the Shurangama mantra. It would be like putting dust (our habits) in the wind of the mantra. Allow the mantra to help clear your habitual patterns with no difficulty and hindrance.“

After reading that the Shurangama mantra can eliminate bad habits, I am thrilled.
Let us send blessing to ourselves – that we may quickly be liberated from the “pain-body”, be free from the habits of our small ego, and re-connect to our Higher Self.


A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose, by Eckhart Tolle. Publisher: Penguin Group.

Practicing the Power of Now: Essential Teachings, Meditations, and Exercises From The Power of Now, by Eckhart Tolle. Publisher: New World Library.

Drip Meditation, by Dr. Mitchell May. Publisher: Lapis Lazuli Light.


Original Chinese article is published in the Nov 2010 issue of Lapis magazine and is accessible online at:http://www.lapislazuli.org/TradCh/magazine/201011/20101109.html

Releasing Attachments in Life


We expect life to be filled with joy. But if we cannot let go of the blockages of “negative memories” stored in us, then we cannot have spiritual freedom, and cannot have a joyful life.

Recently, I went to the hospital to visit an old friend and was greatly distressed to see her suffering from depression due to her inability to let go of certain issues, people and things. Her body is unable to withstand this load of emotions. I wish to share my life experience in letting go with her as well as others who come across this article.

Awakening from Pain In Craving

When I was a one-year-old, my parents moved to Hualien from Taipei for their livelihood. I stayed with my grandparents in Taipei where I was happily spoilt. At the age of four, I moved to Hualien to reunite with my family.

From young, I was very close with my grandmother. I always followed her wherever she went. Every night, we slept together, holding hands. Even after I was transferred to a high school in Taipei, I would still take leave from school and accompany her when she joined the province’s annual pilgrimage group tour.

Despite my greatest fear of smelliness since young, I could sleep contentedly every night in the dormitory that was filled with various foot odours of the elderly tour members, as long as I got to hold her hand.

After graduating from university and entering the workforce, the depth of our feelings never faded even though we did not see each other every day. In 1986, a big life-shocking event prompted me to leave everything to pursue my dream of going to Japan to study. After I made the decision, I told my grandmother. With tears of sadness flowing, my grandmother said: “Can you not go? I am old and hope that you are by my side when it is time for me to go”. I could not see her sadness. All I could see was my dream coming true.

After I went to Japan, I would call her frequently and I could hear her voice growing weaker and weaker. She could no longer walk downstairs. I was in disbelief. When I left Taiwan, she was still the first person to arrive at the old folk’s clubhouse for dancing and exercising. Her health declined quickly because she really missed me. I took leave and went back to Taiwan. One night when she got up to go to the toilet, she fell from second to the first floor.

When I saw her lying in a pool of blood, I was ready to exchange my life for hers. I was willing to let go of everything to bring back her life. I would not leave her anymore. I left my studies. Other than the necessity of making a living, I stopped all other activities and accompanied her whole-heartedly.

Even though she recovered, she lost her smile and her life-force. Gradually, she could only lie in bed and was unable to get out of bed. I was afraid she would leave me. I forced her to do exercises that I thought were good for her. I also forced her to sing ballads to avoid Alzheimer’s disease.

I was deeply trapped in my worries for her.

At work, I would often call home. If nobody answered the phone, I would assume that she might have fallen again. I would imagine all scenarios that terrify me and was unable to work with peace of mind. I would take leave and rush home quickly. Often, it was only the nurse wheeling her to the park.

But due to the anxiety and tension, I was in intense pain. I felt as if we were previously married for seven lifetimes and going through the reincarnation of craving for love, entangling each other in endless pain. The feeling of lifetimes of experience is a powerful magnetizing whirlpool, swirling me into its spin. Later, she had urinary tract infection. While hospitalized, she suffered greatly from the daily blood tests as she was afraid of pain.

One day she said to me, “I feel like jumping off the building. I do not want to live anymore”. I cried and angrily roared at her: “How could you be so cruel to me? I have taken care of you whole-heartedly! What else do you want me to do?”

She did not say a word but turned her body to one side. I was on the brink of collapse with pain. Suddenly, a force of energy came in through my head and woke me up. I believe it was love from the universe! My God! I then realized my selfishness. I had been afraid that the person I loved most would be leaving me. This was just selfish love.

If I really loved my grandmother, I should see her pain and hear her. She told me more than once that she wanted to go to another world, to meet my grandfather, relatives and friends. At that moment I woke up. At her bedside, I communicated with her in my heart: “I understand now. I will no longer be selfish and keep you here. I will respect your choice. I bless you.” Next day, her condition spiraled down. I brought her back to Hualien. After bidding farewell to friends and relatives, she left us, smiling.

Years later, I came to understand that the insatiable desire for love between individuals forms an energy force that binds us together, disabling the separation of each other’s energy field and painfully tormenting each other.

Only being aware of what unconditional love truly is, can one give and not feel afraid of losing nor have the desire to possess others. This was a grand lesson in my life. I learned to respect others’ choices. I think many people are being stuck in craving for love and are unaware of the pain from each other’s entanglement. As long as there are worries, control, etc, in our love. We need to release them all. When I learned more methods of letting go, I gradually realized more inner freedom.

Relinquishment of Attachments

A passage in Peace Pilgrim (see Note) helped me a lot. We have to learn to let go. One type of possessiveness involves possessing other people. No matter how close the relationship is, you do not possess any other human being. “No husband owns his wife; no wife owns her husband; no parents own their children.”

When we think we possess others, we naturally want to run their lives, leading to disharmony. Only when we recognize that we do not possess anyone and that everyone must live in accordance with their own inner guidance, then would we stop trying to run their lives and live in peace with them.

We must be filled with love and care when associating with others without thoughts of possessing or manipulating others. When you think of possessing others, in a sense making others as captives, you yourself will become a captive. If you desire freedom you must give others their freedom.

Love Behind Hatred

When I went back to Hualien, aged 4, I was unhappy with my mother’s discipline. As I was spoiled by my grandparents, I was filled with rebellion. So, I was often beaten and scolded by my mother. My hatred towards my mother grew stronger. I remember when my father brought me to elementary school on his bicycle, he would often say to me: “In this world, no parent is ‘wrong’.” Once, I could not help but retort, “No, in our home, my mom is ‘wrong’!”

I remember that once my mother punished me by giving fruits to my siblings in my presence and deliberately not giving me any. I always vented my anger by writing a diary. I remember writing: “When I grow up, I will take revenge.”

As I grew up, I was caught in a cold war with my mother. So much so that when we met on the road, I would not call her or acknowledge her presence.

In order to escape this environment, I transferred to Taipei when I was in high school. Even though I was a hundred miles away from home, the hatred in my heart did not lessen. Frequently, I would wake up from the nightmares of my mother’s scolding and beating.

I had a good friend who knew of my hatred. She advised me: “If you hate someone, you will meet that person again in your next life.” To this sentence, whenever the thought of hating her arose, I would force myself to switch the thought off like turning off the light.

After I started working and getting paid, I performed the role of a daughter superficially. During mom’s birthday, Mothers’ Day and Chinese New Year, I never forgot to give her presents and “angpow”. But in my heart, I was unable to love her.

In 1994, I attended a Lapis Lazuli Light Workshop held in USA by Dr. Lai. She said: “We must

love all sentient beings.” I thought that I could not even love my own mother, how could I love all sentient beings. After returning to Taiwan, I woke up one morning, I visualize my mother in front of me and said to her: “I want to start to learn to love you.” This incredible mind power has brought amazing results! My mother, who rarely contacted me, called me suddenly that night and said: “You like eating organic vegetables, don’t you? In future, I will grow organic vegetables for you.”

I slowly came to understand how rebellious I was when I was a child. My mother was still young then and could not control her emotions. I had hurt my mother deeply. Then, I built a wall of coldness and hatred. When this wall collapsed, I no longer had the nightmares of beating and scolding from my mother.

The St. Francis of Assisi-prayer has this sentence: “…it is in pardoning that we are pardoned…” I deeply realize the hatred I had at that time not only hurt my mother but also hurt me badly. I was imprisoned.

The few months before my mother passed away, I went back to Hualien to see her every week. At our last meeting, she told me, “You are my precious.” Although I know that the hatred we had disappeared long ago, in my heart I never felt my mother loved me.

My mother fully felt my inner thoughts. Shortly after she passed away, Dr. Lai called to tell me that my mother went to her and told her that I was her precious daughter. Even after my mother was gone, she was still trying hard to let me know how much she loved me. In my heart, arose a great gratitude.

Interpersonal relationship is very complicated. With her great love, perhaps my mother played a role in letting me learn the lesson of forgiveness in this life. For this, she was willing to suffer greatly on my behalf, to play her role well so that I could truly learn the lesson of transforming hate into love.

Perhaps, as Dr. Lai said, many people around us are here at our invitation to play various roles to help us complete the lessons we need to learn in this life. But only with a higher level of cognitive awareness, we are able to learn our lessons through life experience and attain spiritual growth. I want to tell my mother in heaven, “Mom, I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you!”

Leaving Our Concerns for People, Matters and Things to Heaven

One day, a friend called me and said, “My son quit school. I am so afraid and under a lot of pressure.” She asked me what she should do. I told her: “If using worldly approach, you are not able to solve the problem, then leave the problem with Heaven. (‘Heaven’ may also be referred to as God or Bodhisattva, depending on your own faith).

Visualize placing your son on your own hands, raising him up and then hand him to Heaven. Visualize light from heaven shining on him and his body glittering with the light. And feel your worry slowly disappearing, completely trusting Heaven. Then visualize your son standing up and walking towards the light, his face is filled with confidence. This method is very effective.

When we are worried, our energy would bind the other party and may also cause our worries to actually happen. When you let go, the negative energy vanishes. This is also a method to release our own negative energy.

Something incredible happened to this friend. Soon, the son told her, “I have decided to try to get into a better school.” Sure enough, he was later admitted to a school that was much better than the original one. So if you have problems with anyone, any matter and anything that cannot be solved in the usual way, you can hand it to heaven.

Meditation is also a method to strengthen yourself. Gently close your eyes. Be in a very comfortable position. Recite in your heart: “I, so and so, sincerely pray to God. I pray for all the teachers to please listen to me. I hope to solve these problems in my life (narrate the problems you encountered), please help me have wisdom to solve these problems.” Then visualize all these teachers in heaven happily surrounding you. Hand all your problems one by one into their hands, because you trust them.

Feel yourself sitting under a midnight blue sky. It is now late at night. The sky is very beautiful, full of bright and shining stars. The teachings of the teachers are merged with the stars surrounding you. The inspiration you prayed for fall on you like the stars falling down one by one.

They may appear in your dreams, in the thoughts you have when you wake up in the early morning, in a sentence or words of your family and friends or in a book or in other different forms, to give you wisdom to solve your problems. After this visualization, you can feel your problem released in your heart.

If after prayers, things did not happen as you hoped, then please understand that in this matter, the universe may have a larger purpose or a greater effect in place. This may be another gift for you, to teach you another lesson in spirituality. Learn to accept this. It is a wonderful gift, nevertheless.

Note: Steps Toward Inner Peace, Peace Pilgrim.


Ear Acupuncture Point Therapy

I am a retired technician, who has a weak body and suffers from many illnesses since young. To improve my system, I self- studied Chinese medicine. Later, I happened to hear of Chinese physicians using ear acupressure point therapy to treat illnesses, and with incredibly effective results. This aroused my curiosity. I studied by buying books, learning and applying at the same time. Just as taught in the books, when people suffer from illnesses, the related acupoints on the ear would generate positive reaction; for instance a change in the colour of the skin, change in shape, develop rashes, skin peeling off, flushing of blood vessels etc. I began to observe the ears of friends around me. After much experiments and proofs, my confidence increased greatly, I decided to begin action. I used a raw Chinese herb which regulates blood circulation and dissipates blood clots or I used half a green bean, or other types of Chinese herb pellets to place on a piece of porous plaster which allows passage of air. I pasted it on various acupoints on the ear which reacted positively. I then pressed the “bead” with my hand to stimulate the acupoint to achieve the aim of regulating the meridian.

The first occasion was in 1990 when I was hospitalised with coronary heart disease. The heat in my body was unbearable, with a needle-like pricking pain deep in the neck. The fever would not subside. Suddenly, I thought why not try applying the ear acupoint therapy. On the lung acupoint of both ears, I pasted one “bead” of the Chinese herb as mentioned on each ear. When I applied pressure to the “bead”, a gush of heat in my body flowed from the left lungs downwards, suddenly the pain in my neck disappeared. This was the first time I experienced the effects of ear acupoint therapy.

In 1991, a friend of mine, Guo, had stomach ulcer, I pasted the Chinese herb “bead” on the pancreas acupoint of both ears. After applying pressure to the beads for a few minutes, she let out ten over burbs. On the second day, her appetite resumed.

On the Christmas of 1997, I attended a party where I saw my good friend Mdm Chen resting on the sofa with her eyes shut. She was feeling so giddy that she did not wish to open her eyes. As there were no props then, I could only use my fingers to apply pressure on the liver and other related acupoints for several minutes. After a while, she was up dancing again.

Last year, while attending a puja in Los Angeles, Mdm Jin was feeling giddy and unable to move. Upon checking her ears, I realised that her heart was weak, with hormonal imbalance and poor digestion; I immediately pasted the “beads” on the heart, stomach and hormonal secretion acupoints on her ears. When applying pressure to the “beads”, she suffered great pain. However, shortly thereafter, her symptoms were less severe. Later, there was another person who complained of a splitting headache, eyes blackout, sleepiness. I pasted the “beads” on her heart acupoint and adrenal gland acupoint. When I applied pressure to her heart acupoint, I could feel her blood vessels pulsating strongly. I knew that her blood circulation had been improved.

Thereafter, there was a nun with an uncomfortable stomach, lower backache and pain on the foot base. Through observing her ears, I noticed (unusual) positive reactions on her stomach and kidney acupoints. When I applied pressure to her stomach acupoint on her ears, she was in great pain.

In Chinese medicine theory, a person will not feel pain if there is no blockage in meridian and will feel pain if there is blockage in meridian. If the acupoint on the ear feels painful, it shows that it is related to the respective areas of illness and organ systems. The more painful during treatment, the more effective the results. After sometime, the num felt a gush of heat flowing through her stomache, and she kept saying “OK, OK”. When I applied pressure to her kidney acupoint, she felt a gush of heat flowing towards her legs. Immediately, her back did not feel sore, neither did her legs feel painful anymore. There was a monk who was a chant master for years, and he often felt discomfort in his throat. I pasted the Chinese herb “bead” on his lungs acupoint and throat acupoint, at the same time applying cupping therapy to the heart chakra on his chest. Twenty minutes later, the area around the heated suction glass turned dark red, indicating poor blood circulation in the lungs, with some blood clots. Soon after, his throat and lungs felt much comfortable.

As I suffer from coronary heart disease, whenever the cold winter approaches, due to poor blood circulation, my hands and legs often feel ice cold, often triggering heart trouble. Since mine is an old ailment, whenever I feel a stuffy chest, short breath, pain in the right shoulder, or tightening of the muscles around the throat, regardless of whether I am cooking or out shopping or mountain hiking, I would immediately use one hand to apply pressure to the heart acupoint, thereafter let out several burbs. This shows that applying pressure to the heart acupoint improves blood circulation, the symptoms of coronary heart disease slowly reduce, hence learning ear acupoint therapy is really helpful to own self and others.

Extracted from Lapis Lazuli Light Magazine 2002 May Issue
Translated by Lapis Lazuli Light Singapore

Cancer – The Awakening Call

Dixie Keithly’s Story

For those meeting Dixie Keithly for the first time, it is very difficult to associate her with cancer, or to envisage that she is actually sixty-nine years old. This humorous, carefree and energetic lady contracted breast cancer 13 years ago, but has regained her health through natural therapy. In recent years, at her own expense, she has been producing broadcasts in Silicon Valley (California) to disseminate information on natural therapy for the benefit of cancer patients and other interested parties. She promotes the use of natural therapy by talking about her own personal experiences, interviewing cancer patients who have recovered through the use of natural therapy, and interviewing doctors and experts in natural therapy. Dixie’s recovery story serves as an inspiring reminder of the power of natural therapy in cancer treatment.

Dixie believes that, all along, her diet has been healthier than that of most people. Yet, in 1987, she discovered that she had abnormal bleeding from her uterus. She was 56 years then, and had stopped menstruation. Believing that her bleeding arose from hormonal imbalance, her doctor prescribed hormones for her. Three days after consuming the hormones, she started bleeding again. However, her doctor instructed her to complete the entire hormone prescription for that month, and then wait for another month before contacting him. Five days before she was scheduled to contact her doctor, she felt a depression on her breast that felt like loose pieces of eraser shavings. She was later diagnosed as having breast cancer.

Her doctor advised that the affected breast be surgically removed, and warned that the type of cancer she had could spread from one breast to the other. If she were to keep the other breast, she would have to undergo a breast scan every six weeks. A pragmatist, Dixie suggested that both her breasts be removed, as she did not want to live in constant fear of having this nightmare repeated every six weeks. That will certainly drive her crazy!

Before her surgery, Dixie explored the use of natural therapy. Unfortunately, she was unable to obtain any leads because all the people she initially spoke to had undergone surgery or chemotherapy. She later fortuitously came across a library book that described natural therapy methods involving diet, chiropractic, and acupuncture. This increased her understanding and confidence in natural therapy. Later, she contacted cancer patients who had recovered from cancer by adopting natural therapy methods, and made up her mind to go to Mexico to discover more.

Like most people who decided to adopt natural therapy, Dixie encountered objections from concerned friends and relatives. Despite these objections, she set off alone for Mexico to seek treatment. Dixie has a strong will to survive-this was her life, and she had to make the best choice for herself.

While undergoing natural therapy in Mexico, she went through a programme of detoxification and diet control. She also took medication to strengthen her immune system, drank mineral water, and underwent a seven-day fruit juice fast every three months. Her doctor emphasized the importance of detoxification, and the need to replenish the body with clean food after detoxification. According to her doctor, the body would know how to regulate itself, and return to normal. This natural healing ability of the body has been observed since time immemorial.

Dixie was very lucky to find a doctor she trusted. Over the next ten years, she regularly followed up on her treatments, and took better tonics over time. She adopted a natural vegetarian diet, complementing it with regular fasts and exercises. These are the secrets to her triumph over cancer. According to Dixie, the costs of her traveling expenses, food, lodging, and medical expenses for her yearly trip to Mexico were even lower than her expenditure on annual checkups in California. This low financial cost of natural therapy treatment was one reason why she could persevere with her treatment for ten years. Even though her doctor told her three years ago (1997) that she need not return to Mexico for treatment, she decided to continue her regular checkup because her doctor is like a teacher and a friend to her.

Till this day, Dixie continues to be filled with energy and a zest for life. She emphasizes the importance of a diet balanced in acidity and alkalinity that nourishes the body, and advocates regular fasts to detoxify the body. She suggests the need to communicate with our own body, to treat ourselves well, and to bring happiness to others. Her friends always say that her programmes are not only informative, but also entertaining as well. Her humor brings laughter and her enthusiasm touches the hearts of many.

Shortly after contracting cancer, Dixie had taken a vacation in Africa, and she seemed to have a new lease of life after seeing the wild African animals. This spiritual awakening that she experienced changed her perspective of life-she was motivated to treat her body well, to develop her spiritual life, and to become a happy and healthy example to others.

To Dixie, cancer is just an awakening call, not a death call. If a person can still live happily after contracting cancer, if a person nearing seventy can still be vivacious, what is there to be fearful of?


  1. Vitamin C Ascorbic Acid crystals : Dissolve 1 teaspoon (about 4 grams) of natural Vitamin C crystals into half a glass of warm water. Add fruit juice for taste. During Dixie’s period of treatment, she would take 20 grams of natural Vitamin C crystals daily.
  2. Flax seed oil (containing Omega 3 & 6) and digestive enzymes (mega chelated).
  3. Plant-based vitamins and minerals. On a daily basis, take at least 40,000 I.U. of Vitamin A, and 800 I.U. of Vitamin E (breast cancer patients should not take Vitamin E supplements).
  4. Sodium selenite (fights tumors).
  5. If the body is not too weak, fasting is a very good therapy method. Please read “Fasting can Save Your Life” by Shelton.
  6. On a daily basis, consume 8 glasses of carrot juice with 4 teaspoon of barley-green powder, or 8 glasses of dark green vegetable juice with carrot juice.
  7. Refrain from all animal-based products (pork, beef, chicken, fish, milk, eggs, cheese, yogurt, etc.)
  8. Do not take processed white flour but take brown rice and 100% wholemeal bread.
  9. Do not drink liquor or smoke cigarettes.
  10. Do not take salt (use Bragg liquid aminos instead)
  11. Do not take sugar or sugar substitutes (cancer cells love sugar)
  12. Drink diluted fruit juice or herbal tea.
  13. Replace vinegar with fresh lemon juice.
  14. Eat large quantities of leeks (raw and fresh ones are even better). Leek capsule (Kyolic) is a good substitute.
  15. Drink distilled water, not bottled water.
  16. Consume mainly raw food, and wherever possible, choose organic vegetables & fruits, especially dark green vegetables.
  17. Do not eat fried foods.
  18. Drink 10 glasses of water daily (avoid drinking large amounts of water half an hour before meals and one hour after meals)


  1. Remove metal fillings in the teeth, and avoid all phosphorus products (for instance, toothpaste with added phosphorus and chemical cleaning agents).
  2. Do at least 20 minutes of outdoor exercise daily to reduce cholesterol and to stabilize one’s mood.
  3. Expose the body to sunlight, but avoid the sun at noontime.
  4. Have sufficient rest.
  5. Maintain a positive attitude towards life (negative attitude is also a toxicant).
  6. Practise deep breathing of fresh air (cancer cells do not like oxygen).
  7. Helping others is a source of happiness, and will alter one’s bodily chemical reaction.
  8. Illness is the body’s way of calling out for help, and you have to modify your behavior and lifestyle if you wish to live. Communicate with your body to achieve balance and harmony.
  9. From the spiritual perspective, believe illness is a meaningful experience.

Dixie Keithly’s broadcast programme is on every 3rd, 4th & 5th Thursday of the month, from 12 noon to 1 p.m. on FM 91.5 KKUP. It can be received near the Silicon Valley area in California.

Extracted from Lapis Lazuli Light Magazine 2001 May Issue
Translated by Singapore Lapis Lazuli Light

Visualisation – A Magical Therapy

Xie Qingfen

The first time I had urethritis was in January 2005. Due to a cataract surgery, my mother was hospitalized and needed my care. The ward was for two people. When I went to the ward, I saw blood on the toilet seat and on the floor in the bathroom. So I scrubbed the floor and flushed it with water. The next morning, I found myself unwell, and felt the urge to go to the bathroom, but the urine was intermittent, and I was unable to clear the urethra in one go. Sometimes it was painful, and later blood also appeared in the urine. I was somewhat worried, because I had never suffered from urethritis before, I did not know these were symptoms of acute urethritis. Later I had to go to the hospital, the doctor prescribed antibiotic and told me to drink at least 3000ml of water daily in order to relieve the symptoms. Looking back at that time, the body might have been exhausted and the immune system weakened, which was why I was infected when I scrubbed the toilet.

Two months later, my body was again in a state of low immune system, and the symptoms of acute urethritis appeared. But this time, I did not want to give my body antibiotics, because from my viewpoint, the last prescription of antibiotics was only a temporary relief from the symptoms, it did not completely solve the problem. Last year I read Dr Lai’s “Hui Gui Xin De Xi Yue” (回歸心的喜悅). The book shared the concept of using visualization to heal and also to activate self-healing power. I remember that I have used visualisation to heal my chesty cough [cough with phlegm] without using medication. So I wanted to give it a try and see if it can also be applied to the current symptoms. I first visualised the virus-infected organs, then using white light to clean these infected areas. I felt that these infectious agents were in fluorescent orange color, so I used white light to clean them one by one. Then I used blue light to clean my kidneys, bladder and urethra, because blue light has analgesic effect, so during visualisation, it really felt cool and calm. I usually do the visualisation in the morning or when taking the bus home, and also before going to sleep. At any other time when I could focus on visualisation, I also did it. It was very effective. After visualising for two days, all the uncomfortable symptoms disappeared. Putting magic aside, I also tried ‘Mind to Mind Therapy’ [Translator’s Note: Also known as “Psychic Healing” or “Televisual Healing”, discovered by Ben Bibbs] on my family, the results were also good. I would suggest that you experience this personally. For more information, please refer to Dr Lai’s “Hui Gui Xin De Xi Yue” (回歸心的喜悅).

Editor’s Note: For those who are not strong in color visualisation, use colour filter. Please refer to the book “Let There Be Light” for the applications of different colours.

Translated from Chinese:

Discharging Gallstones Without Surgery

Liu Hui Ling

Over the years, Lapis Lazuli Light has published articles on readers’ experience in discharging gallstones. Regretfully, in the newspapers we still read about some of the side effects of cholecystectomy. Recently, after reading Madam Liu’s personal experience and seeing the wonderful photos she enclosed, we decided to re-publish Madam Liu’s article considering that this is the season in Taiwan when organic apples are in bountiful supply. We hope that our readers will actively promote this simple natural therapy in discharging gallstones as this will prevent families and friends from suffering unnecessarily.

Editorial (Taiwan Lapis)

In 2009, my aunt had intense pain in her left abdomen. She found out from her doctor that she had gallstones and had been inflamed for the last four days. The doctor advised her that surgery was necessary to remove the stones, but as my aunt was very afraid of surgery, she immediately called my mother. On the same day, my mother bought 8 bottles of organic apple juice and Epsom salt for my aunt. She taught her Dr Lai’s method of expelling gallstones. Sure enough, my aunt eliminated a big bucket of stones in the toilet! Not only was the pain gone, she also no longer needed surgery.

Mum also shared this method with Mr Chen, a good friend of Mr Su whose photos we shall attach below). Mr Chen also tried the method and discharged a lot of stones. Mr Chen’s 12-year-old daughter suffered from stomach bloatness frequently. We initially believed that gallstone problems happen only to those who are over 30 years old. (In her talk, Dr. Lai shared that people who are over 30 years old need to discharge gallstones if they have bloated stomach.) As this remedy is healthy and tasty, and since it does not impact a growing child, Mr Chen let his 12 year-old daughter try it. She also discharged a lot of gallstones and her flatulence was gone.

After hearing testimonies from Mr Chen, Mr Su’s confidence grew and started to use this method himself.

The following narrated a personal experience of Mr Su, a retiring teacher in Taichung, Taiwan. The photos are provided by Mr Su.

More than ten years ago, Mr Su has already learned of this surgery-free, natural way of discharging gallstones. Due to fear and a lack of confidence, he did not try it.

From July 2009 to May 2010, he has done the flush 12 times.

Photo 1 showed the discharge of gallstones from the 2nd, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th, 9th flushes (the coin in the photo is a NT$1 which can be used as a reference for the size of the stones). When the stones were first discharged, they were either green or brown colour and could be picked up by chopsticks. After exposing the stones to sunlight, they turned black!

Photo 2 showed stones at the 3rd flush. The sizes can be seen from the centimetre grid drawn on the paper. Compared to the first and second time, they were much bigger; the biggest was about 4x2cm!
Mr Su thought that after having done the flush twice, he would not have any more stones and was going to stop. His mother insisted that he tried it one more time, and surprisingly, bigger stones were discharged. This is because on the first two flushes, these stones were too large and were unable to soften enough for discharge. Many people believe that such large gallstones cannot be discharged from such a small exit. Please refer to the Japanese program “學校沒教的事單元” (“What the school does not teach”). Evidently, if the stones are softened enough, they can be flushed out.

Photo 3:
When doing the flush for the fourth time, even bigger stones were discharged, with the largest measuring about 5 x 3 cm. They were discharged on the second day on its own even before drinking Epsom salt or apple juice. The biggest stone was as large as the size of a Taiwan dollar. (Translator’s note: A Taiwan dollar is 20mm in diameter, slightly larger than a Singapore 10-cent coin.)

Photo 4:
At the tenth flush, most of the stones were small with a few large ones. Mr Su continued to do the flush a few more times. Some of the discharges were like fine sand floating in the toilet, hence no photo was taken for record.

The original Chinese article is published in the Nov 2010 issue of Lapis magazine and is accessible online at: